+ You Know What // Wednesday, October 15, 2008
I'm through. I am not going to put up with this crap anymore, nor am I going to put myself in any of this crap. I don't know what is wrong with me. I mean, I do have a hunch and more than a few solid ideas, but honestly I don't know. Why am I like this? It's infuriating to see myself like this. I'm the exact opposite of what I want to be. Is it because I don't try hard enough? This may be. I think it is. Well, no more. I'm done with this. I am not going to stand for this, not going to live with this, not going to live like this. This has to end someday. I'm going to make it soon. I have to make a move, get things moving, get things started, because up to now, I've never been stepping forward. I've only ever been staying in the same place, time after time, over and over, and even moving backwards. This is unacceptable. I will no longer tolerate this. I have to change. There will be no more "but"s.
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