+ Heavy Heart // Sunday, October 5, 2008
It's a given that on Sunday nights(especially if there's school the next day), everyone and I mean, everyone, will be working on homework or studying. My AIM buddy list proves my point. I look at the all the away messages and they read "homework" in some way or form. I can talk to anyone and they will be studying. Things are always worse when there's WHAP homework due or a WHAP quiz. There's insurmountable panic, stress, and and the oh-so-wonderful pestering. That's right: pestering. It happens to me frequently and I hate it. I don't mind occasionally helping a friend/acquaintance out, but when it gets to be continuous, I've had enough. That's why I tend to be invisible on nights like these. Anyway, I myself have homework to complete. I've already finished everything that's due tomorrow, but I want to get ahead with WHAP so I'm working on the timeline and hopefully the map later on.
I feel no inclination to sleep tonight. Maybe because I'm dreading tomorrow, not because of the WHAP quiz, but because of first and fourth period, my new classes. I worked so hard to get them changed, and after one-two days, I already hate it. It's insane how I wanted it so much, but it ended up being so bad...I took things for granted. I took my real friends for granted. I'm a terrible person. I suppose we really don't know how good we have it till we lose it.
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